Some Old Stories From A While Back

This is a a story from July 3, 2013.. Enjoy :)

     So, tomorrow is July 4th and I can't wait! Maybe I'll see fireworks that inspire me to do something else in my life (that's how easy it is for me to be inspired by something!). I may love photography and being an actress, but I also love soccer and writing, but nothing is ever definite in life. You have to preconceive the idea of life before you make a move and I'm pretty sure I'm not even close. Some people take life like a quiz or a test. Not me. I live the days to the fullest and not wait for tomorrow. I want to take life by the hands and pull it all in. And I say hands because why would I grab it by the balls? Hahaha!! What if life is a girl? (rhetorical questions being asked here) Then what would you grab? I never understood that.
      Most people don't  know this, but I actually enjoy English (like the class). I may not like some topics, but when I start writing... good luck stopping me. I basically write a novel. My life is not about guys and a broken heart or being bullied or even me really. My life is about the valued things in life. Friends, sports, family, maybe school, but I love life no matter what bumps or mile stones I cross in it. I know that I am loved and that I have the best friends I could ever ask for, although I don't feel loved by some, I am grateful with what I have. My family may have been abusive, but that's only to teach me what's right and wrong in life, well, that's what they say it's all about, but I doubt it. I may treat my family like I don't care or something, but it's way different in my eyes. I don't like the way I act and I'm trying to change that. I want to feel like myself again. I feel like I'm somewhere, but not here I should be (depression wise). I want to be that "Southern Bell" that I was when I was younger, not some girl from Georgia that doesn't respect and care for anyone. I don't want people to see me as that.

Hey Everyone!
     Keep in mind that this was written a year ago and I am definitely not that same person who was in the worst place ever emotionally and physically. I am happy some what, but I am in a better place emotionally at least. Thanks for reading everything I have written and if you haven't, go check that out!  Have a wonderful afternoon!
-The Writer