This post isn't about a person; but a thing with many human characteristics. Derick; the one who gets me. I wish I could talk to you and then get a response back. You are beautiful and talented; literally you were born talented. If you guessed what Derick was, yes; he is a guitar that I have had for 3 years and coming on 4 this Christmas. (FYI: i didn't spell Derick wrong, I just like it spelled that way.) I have always been able to express myself to him. Through one of my talents and one of my weaknesses; singing and frustration. I want Derick to be there when I make my first single, when I make my first album and when my first record hits. If I ever choose to start singing as a career. (If you want to hear me sing go check me out on Vine (its an app) just search for "Steph Richards") I never know if I'm good. Sometimes when I think something is bad, some people think its good and then when I think something is good, some people think it's either bad or they try and say it's bad by telling me what I need to improve or work on. I haven't played Derick until this year. Yeah, I know. Why didn't I play him when I got him? What was I thinking? If I didn't lay him until this year, I don't think I would be where I am today. I have written songs and written songs w/o lyrics and I just don't think any of this would have happened.
I never saw myself as a song writer, a singer, or an actress. Acting came to me when I was just 8 years old (then again, I was too delusional to realize I was good at it); Singing came to me at about age 10; I wasn't too bad, but there are sooooo many things I needed to work on (I just started to learn to sing from my diaphragm and I still don't know what anything else is including a vibreto!). Finally, writing songs came to me a year ago. I like about 2 songs I have written and finished. I would post them, but I really can't share that stuff. I have showed 2 people and sung one of them to only 1 person (that person means the world to me <3).
This year has been amazing and heartbreaking with Derick and just everything. Losing the only person I care about more then anything -Evan-. He's my big brother and my best friend and the biggest dork on the planet, but I get to spend my high school years knowing this big dork, but it's the best 4 years of my life. He has stood up for me like no other and I can't thank him enough for that, but he is now back in my life after I did something that I was being stupid for doing. I can't even believe I did it.. wow. No matter how much Evan may get me mad and sad and happy and just completely blessed to have him as my big brother, I use everything he has taught me and showed me and everything from music to being a better me, into writing a song and those songs are always the best.
Woah, I have gone on too long, time to get to bed! I have a Dodger's game tomorrow with the fam bam (a cool way to say the family) and one of my best friends Sydney and then writing more songs and playing guitar and just enjoying my day and being so blessed that I am still here thanks to Evan for saving me.
Goodnight and God Bless <3
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