This title might not seem very appealing, but it's how I feel. Yeah, I guess I could have picked a better one, but why try anymore. It's a title, not my life. I have noticed everything seems so senseless nowadays. I don't feel the way a (now 16 years old) teenager should feel. It's like the life I would like will never happen now and I can thank my parents and friends and everyone who has ruined my self esteem. The only way I can keep myself a secret now is using Blogger. Nothing in my life is a secret. Nothing is the way I'd like it to be. I wish it was, but it's like I seriously mess up everything possible. My life, my attitude, my presence, my everything messes up every chance I get. I can't get one opportunity to be successful in anyway possible. I can't just catch my breathe from this bullshit of a life.
Fine, i admit it, I've been depressed for awhile now and this year was the worst ever. Way worse and way more intense and dangerous. I can't say how many people have tried to help me because there is just too many to count and not enough to give credit for. I can't express how much I would like to thank them for everything that they do for me. My life isn't coming to an end just yet (key word: yet), so here I am still fighting to stay here and help out my friends when they are in need because they all come first in my being happy. I want to die happy and that is the only way I can ever die, is if I am truly happy.
Well, that's enough writing for me tonight. See y'all later :) Goodnight!! <3
