The One That Keeps Me Going

His name whispers in my ear every night before I sleep and every morning that I wake. He is apart of my history but most of all my heart. He fills it with love, happiness, and caring. His smile kills me slowly inside, along with his eyes. I fear his every touch, his every laugh and his every word that he speaks to me. Every second, every minute, every hour and every day I talk to him it feels like the first day I met him. I still remember the day we met too. It was an event for kids that have their parents deployed to whatever country and don't get to have the Christmas they want because their parent(s) aren't there. It is just another way to show kids that everyone is there for them and that they are cared for by others too. I can't express the feelings I have for him. I have an easy time expressing my feelings for people, but maybe he is different. I am very worried I will mess things up because I don't know how to tell him more then he knows. Can it ever be that day when I can just tell him everything at once and he will , maybe in the slightest way possible, feel the same way. The love will forever be a mystery.