I look at you and see this miracle that faded in my life. I was safe. I had no more nightmares and all I did was turn your life into hell. I don't regret anything we ever did. "We shine until we fade." -We The Kings. You were that star in my life that shined and I hadn't realized that you had faded. It may have been almost 2 weeks since we separated, but i don't think I have any more reason to hate myself then you do. I'm not a miracle worker. You glide your hand across my leg or you move closer to me; you kiss me on the cheek and then keep me warm by putting your legs by my arms. These are all the things I wish had happened when I was myself and when I realized my faults. Everything is meant to happen for a reason; that is what you seem to believe. I have no tears left to shed, but if I did; they would be falling now. I try to talk to you all the time to act like nothing ever happened, but that never works. I was safe. I was secure. I was everything i wanted to be, but myself.
My nightmares came back. The endless kidnappings and the endless runaways, etc. that i had dreamed. They haunt me. I try to do what you suggested I do, and forget my past, but it follows me everywhere I go, every time I sleep, yet not when I'm with you. I don't want this to haunt me too. Ruining your happiness, was not my intention... ever. Thank you for an amazing 2 months of my life.
I will never forget you..
