Struggling senior year is bound to happen with everyone. I have gone through a few so far as the year has begun. Those struggles began with my english class. I am taking English 4 ERWC, which means Expository Reading and Writing Course. I have chosen this course because I am not a fan of the books. I do not like to read unless I get to choose what the content is. I also chose this course for the writing experience because I wanted to write better when it came to my blog posts. In this class, we were assigned a Narrative Essay; an essay about yourself, and I had written one about my past with the abuse happening with my family and then bullying throughout my life (I will be posting it on my blog shortly for your viewing pleasure). Being a teacher, when you read a story about abuse and all the things that have happened, it is protocol that they report it and tell the office so that they could prevent it if something is still occurring. Well, this had happened with my essay. I was scared, honestly. Due to my parents not knowing that I wrote it, made it worse in case they did find out. But thankfully, they have not and hopefully they will never find out.
A benefit to my senior year would be meeting new friends. Yes, a guy and then a few girls. No, unfortunately nothing is happening with me and the fellow, but hopefully we can just get to know each other for now. I just want all my friends to be happy, especially him. We had talked and gotten to know each other a little bit, yet it lead to kissing under the stars on a blanket at the park. It was just so amazing. Good kisser, great guy, the most unbelievable personality that you would ever know, the kindest heart ever, and the best smile ever, followed by the cutest laugh ever. We stand friends, but distant a little. Deciding to just be friends and get to know each other, we have hung out about 2 times since deciding that. Awkward, a little, but that is just in my opinion.
One thing that gets me every time, is that I have had my first kiss with now 5 guys at that same park. I do not know what that means, maybe just a coincidence. I do not like reflecting on certain things like that because it makes me sound like I do it often.. but I promise I do not. I just wish it could be different with this guy, that is all. Time will only tell.
Another struggle I have gone through is almost not graduating High School. There is a lit more pressure on me to graduate because I flunked a lot of classes freshmen and sophomore year, and now I am given the consequences. I will graduate to prove everybody wrong. I have no one that believes in me and frankly, I am my own support system 95 % of the time. That is sad.
Finally, the other benefit that I have gone through this year, so far, is that I am getting more into the industry than I had assumed I would be since about 8th grade. Which makes me happy because I am doing this all on my own because I do not have a support system next to me like others do. I am inspired by very few to keep going and always love what you do, otherwise it is a job.
I hope you all liked this post. I will be sure to post the essay I have written for class. Possibly, by Wednesday (10/21/15) of next week. I encourage you all to keep a smile on your face andjust be yourself regardless of what anybody says. Have A Goodnight!!!
-the writer
