Real Friends

The only thing anybody needs are Real Friends. True friends that will help you when things are bad and when things don't go the way you want them to. 

Friends can be deceitful or can be truthful and loving. No one likes the deceitful ones. True friends are there at your lowest point and can bring you back up to your highest. They will listen to you whenever you need to rant or something.

Friends stay with you to the end. And if they don't, they didn't deserve you and you deserve better. Pick your friends wisely people.. You never know what kind of assholes there are out there. 

I know that my best friend is a true friend. The things she has done for me are just some of the things a true friend does. 

Pick your friends wisely. 

-The writer 

The Change

Don't we all change for that special person? Even when we aren't trying, we magically change our actions, our words, and our appearance just for them. I've noticed I have been doing this and I have started to try and change back to my old self. I liked my old self. I wasn't clingy like I am now, I was more loving than passive aggressive. I used to listen to my friends about everything but ever since I met someone new, I have closed out their opinions. I have a tendency to do so and I don't like when I do it. 

The thing about me changing is: I don't notice I do it until I get time to step back and look at life. I don't get a lot of time to myself and it sucks. It really does, but I try my hardest to go running so I can clear my mind and go back to my old ways. 

The guy I'm seeing is amazing. He's so fun and I love being with him.. Now what I mean by "seeing" this guy, is that we broke up because we both weren't ready for relationships and so we broke up and we are calling ourselves " a thing... But with feelings". I honestly couldn't be happier where I am. He means the world to me and being the hopeless romantic I am, we strive for the cute things in life and he made one happen the other day. 

It was a beautiful day and we had been wanting to hang out after everything went down hill. We took his mom's car because his was out of gas, but that was okay because I loved how he set everything up. We got a few pillows that you would put on a futon, and a blanket and a movie and went to a high place here in California. We opened up the back of the van and laid down and just cuddled because we first went to a national park in the area so it was just secluded and it was so beautiful. I just adored the scenery. 

After we were told by the ranger that the park was closing, we went to a neighborhood after trying to find a high place around here with a view, so we just found a dead end in a street and parked. We left the trunk closed and put the pillows up against the back so we could watch the movie in the van (it had a did player in it). I can't remember the name of the movie for the life of me. And I can't say how much I am falling for him. He just makes me see the world from a new perspective and I can't thank him enough for everything he has ever done for me. 

I do, honestly, think it's crazy that I'm falling for him after meeting him on July 3rd. Although, July 4th was one of the best days of my life. 

To him: Thank you so much for this opportunity and thank you for being there for me no matter what. Even when times are hard. You're the best and I hope we can go places someday as a couple. 

-the writer 

Tell Me A Story - For You

I want to know you. 

Tell me about you. 

Let me know your weaknesses

Let me know your strengths

Your pet peeves 

and habits

Tell me a story

Tell me YOUR story

           I want to get to know you. It has been about five days and we aren't as close as I wanted us to be. You don't know much about me either. I want to tell you and I want to be able to show you, but I'm just so scared. I want to show you my life and I want to tell you all about it. I just can't always be so open with everybody and you are the first person that I don't want their opinion to change about me once you hear it all in one go. This is me showing you what I am about. Below, you can read about my struggles and the things I have been through from relationships to my home life and to my thoughts and my almost's. I can't show you what I am about.. you have to read for yourself. Yes, it is a lot. Yes, it does get detailed, personal, and depressing, but.. that's me. I can't help it if you don't like it. But whatever you do, don't play me. Don't act like I'm a normal person and don't treat me like one either. After you read them... tell me about you. Your struggles, your past, your home and your thoughts. You know me now, I can't get more open than a Blog that literally the whole world can see. I love my readers and when it comes to YouTube, I love my viewers. I wouldn't be where I am without them. So, thank you. But, I would like you to be a part of that life that gets to live with me and not just someone who gets to read it all on a computer screen. So, tell me about YOU. And join me in this journey. 

For you. 

You know who you are. 

-The writer

My World is Spinning With You

7/7/15

            Something about you, not everything, but one thing about you caught my eye the day we met. We were just at our friend's house and I sat right next to you on the couch. You asked me my name after you introduced yourself, followed by a handshake. We both drank that night (7/3/15). When I was about to leave, you asked me for my number after trying to flirt with me for a little. I left and we talked all night long until about 2 am when I fell asleep. You are the first guy to ask me for my number to my face. The next day was the 4th of July and we were both invited to our friend's house again. You didn't drink because you were gonna drive home (Smart Choice!), but man.. did I drink! Wine, beer and a shot of Vodka that was mixed into a beer when I was playing BP (beer pong). After telling you what a hopeless romantic I am, I had said what a perfect first kiss together would be: watching the fireworks and sitting at the park and kiss while the fireworks went off. You made that happen and it was a firework of our own. Literally the best 4th of July I could ever have and I will never forget that. Our first real date was 7/6/15. We went to my house after I got out of summer school and we played Xbox and then had a little fun in my room ;)... Then! We went to the Lake and swam in the lake and laid out for a little. After the lake, we stopped at my house so I could change and after went to Taco Bell for dinner. After a delicious dinner, you and I left to your house so that you could change, too. That's where I met your Dad and sister. Your dad was very nice and so was your sister, but your sister was so beautiful! Ha ha! 
           After you got changed, we went to go see Spy. We knew the previews were about 20 minutes long, so we sat in your car until about 6:50 pm, talking, bonding, etc. We got to the movies and we sat at the top, left corner (if you are facing the screen, it's the top left corner). I had the best day ever, but at the movie we just held hands, kissed a little, and you complimented me so much. I apparently looked like Rapunzel that night.. I just took it as a compliment cause I knew he liked it. Ha ha ha! When the movie got out, it was only 9 pm. I had put your jacket on because I was freezing and I loved wearing it (I still do). I didn't want to go home, so we went on a canyon drive then to taco bell to just hang out there. Yet, we left shortly after because your friends that you didn't want to talk to were there. So, we left to my house and sat on my street until 9:40 pm-ish, talking an listening to music. You walked me up to my gate and we kissed and said thank you for such a good night. I went to take off your jacket and you said to keep wearing it. I kept it on and you left. I still have your jacket and I can't wait for more dates you talked about taking me out again and again. I can't wait!

                                               P.S. I haven't told him about my blog and the past.. :/ I'm a bit scared. 

                             

   -The writer